“I have told you these things so that you will be filled with my joy. Yes your joy will overflow!”
You’ve caught me at an interesting time. Times they are a changing. With all of these changes come a lot of feelings, and if there’s one thing I don’t like, it’s feelings. With everything life is bringing my way it’s been easy to just get caught up in it all. Then I read John 15:11 and it hit me like a ton of bricks. Jesus is talking about the Vine and the Branches. In verse 11 He says, “I have told you these things so that you will be filled with my joy. Yes your joy will overflow!” Joy? Overflowing joy? I'll take it! How about we start this first blog post with me telling you about everything in my life and how it stresses me out? Maybe this is more therapy for me, than you actually getting something out of it. I’m not really selling you on reading this am I? Don’t worry I’ll post something funny next time.
Engaged and planning a wedding. Going into it, I was feeling on top of the world. Everything was going to just work out, but when you get two people who aren’t always the best with making decisions, it’s surprisingly hard to make a decision. Shouldn’t we be happier than we’ve ever felt before? We’re getting freaking married in two months. I can definitely say planning a wedding has at times made me pretty anti-wedding. Everything comes back around to being about other people…and that’s the last thing I want to worry about (sorry Mom). Still trying to find the line between making ourselves happy and making others happy that want to celebrate with us. I’ll get back to you in two months about that one.
Currently working at a grocery store full time mostly shifts that start at six in the morning, have a part time job at a radio station some weekend nights, and volunteer for the worship team at my church. My jobs aren’t the worst, but what’s been wearing me down lately is that I know they aren’t where I want to be. I’m 24 shouldn’t I have started to kind of figure this career stuff out by now? What I feel called to do is to be in music ministry for a living, but right now the reality is that…well that’s not reality. This has probably been the biggest joy sucker in my life. Right in front of me is this thing I feel God has called me to do. So why isn’t it happening how or when I want?
I’ve always thought of myself as a huge family person. Family is the most important thing to me. You definitely wouldn’t think that once I moved out and started building a life of my own. It’s hard to try to work out getting together with your family once you’re on your own. Being with my friends and my girlfriend just sound like a better time (sorry again Mom). But when it comes down to it, in some ways and at some times, being away from family turns out to be quite the joy sucker. All I’m saying is call your mother. Don’t worry about calling your dad, he’s probably fine.
Alright, here’s the kicker. When it comes down to it, the only reason any of these things would be stealing my joy is this: I’m letting them. I’m leaving the keys in my car, walking away, and letting them take a joy ride. Yay puns! This is where John 15:11 hit me so hard. Our joy comes from Jesus Christ. If we have joy in Him, we have power over any other thing that could come our way. Joy isn’t this intangible thing we have to work for. The Spirit is longing to connect us to Jesus, who is the source of this joy. When His joy is in us, it will overflow into any other area of our life where we are lacking, and will transcend any of our own circumstances.
I definitely still don’t have it all figured out, but I’d say it’s a start.
“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.”